Hello.

I'll start off by saying the title is inspired by a song, amazingly called "Maybe".

As many of you might have noticed, or not, i'm not a big fan of writing journals, because usually i never know what to write. I decided to write this journal, because of Janis Joplin. For those of you who don't know her, she was a singer who died at the age of 27, about 42 years ago, which makes a one of the best known members of "Club 27".

But obviously i don't want to write her biography in this journal. I'm writing this because i wanted to honor her, as she is my favourite female singer, and has inspired me since i was 11. And today is her birthday. She would've turned 70 today. So i wanted to thank and honour her, as she's had a great influence on me. I'm going to link a couple of her songs.
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Anyway, the other thing i wanted to write about is the fact that i have pretty much totally forgot about DA. I haven't really been on since a couple of months, and i haven't been active as a deviant for about half an year. A lot of stuff has been going on in my life, family problems, social problems, personal problems and problems generally, followed by a depression. Also the fact that i have no life whatsoever, has resulted in me sitting the entire day in front of my computer, and doing nothing.

So, since it's a tradition to make "new years resolutions", i have made mine too. Only i plan to be the first person in the history of history to actually stick to them!
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...and until now i have failed miserably.

And so, i shall hereby vow to myself, that i indeed will start attending ballet classes, and a music school. And i WILL upload the photos i took last year. Maybe i'll write that story that has been in my head for like 5 months now, and i will start on that comic me and my friend have been talking about. For over an year now.

And HOLY CRAP, someone decided to fire fireworks outside my window, no idea why. But i'll take that as a good omen.

On another note, i have been reading Freud and Jung and their dream-interpretation theories. In fact, i have been reading a lot about dreams recently. I actually started a little self-experiment. Basically i started a dream-diary, and i have come to the conclusion that i remember about 5-6 dreams EVERY time i wake up. Ulitmately, this should help me having a lucid dream, a dream of which i am aware off. Because i want my teaparty with Jim Morrison and the Joker.

I'm also going to make a little about 6-7 min. movie about dreams. As in characters and plot, no educational stuff there. And i am still searching for plot. So if, by any chance, anyone reads this, what is your most memorable dream? Send me a note, that would really help me a lot.

And the songs: [link] Ok, it'll be one song only, because it's IMPOSSIBLE to find any original or GOOD live versions of her songs on youtube.